Mommy4jesus

Mom's Birthday

2008-09-18T03:35:00.000-07:00

Today is my mother's birthday. She is now my son's Memaw as well so I guess the post should actually read Memaw's birthday as well. I am so grateful to have my mother still hear with me on earth. Today, she will receive a birthday call from me wishing her a happy birthday. Her present will have to wait until we can see her this weekend. She is having to work on her birthday and we are not going to be able to go and see her before she leaves for work. So Happy Birthday Mom. I love you !

Isaac's B-day party

2008-09-14T14:17:00.000-07:00

I can hardly beleive that my dear son is three years old. We had his birthday party at our house last weekend. He is a big Thomas fan as you can see from the picture. We also had a bunch of people over. Thanks to all his family and friends who showered him with love, gifts and affection.

Praise and Worship Music

2008-05-28T16:59:00.000-07:00

Our church is starting a new alternative worship service, which I am a part of. Right now my husband is trying out open source worship presentation software. I am going to try and help him as much as I can but I am not too computer literate. I am learning as I go I guess that is the best way.
Well back to the reason for the post. I love praise and worship music. Right now my favorite song is "Run into your arms". It is such a beautiful song the words are so meaningful. Today is a day that I would love to be curled up in my Savior's arms. Thank you Lord for the strength that you give me everyday even when I don't ask you for it.

Memorial Day

2008-05-26T14:36:00.000-07:00

What a day! I am so thankful for all the men and women who fight for my freedom everyday. My prayer is that all of you are kept safe and that your families are taken care of while you are away. Thanks again for all the work that you do for us.

Cindy Morgan's new song Beautiful Bird

2008-05-25T14:25:00.000-07:00

I just found this on God Tube. It is a beautiful song and has a deep meaning. The little girls in the video are adorable as well. Hope you all enjoy.

Fun Festival

2008-05-10T02:57:00.000-07:00

Last night we had a Fun Festival where I work as a fund raiser. It was such a blast! In my room, we had a bean bag toss. Other rooms had popcorn, fishing and other tossing games. For the first half we went around to the other rooms and ate supper. In the gym they had the inflatable bouncy slides, and a bouncy castle. As you may have guessed my little guy wanted to bounce and slide. We had a great time but carrying a 32lb toddler up a bouncy slide is no picnic. My arms and shoulders are a bit sore this morning. My back even hurts a little. I wish I has pictures to show you all the fun that we had but I didn't take any although my co-worker did so I will have to see if I can get her to give me the picture. It was a blast. It just reminds me of how old I am getting and how out of shape that I am.

Joys of Motherhood

2008-05-04T14:27:00.000-07:00

Motherhood means a lot more to me now that I am a mother. Mothers feel everything. Our emotions run the spectrum. One minute you feel pride that your child can run and play and the next you feel the aggravation of having to chase after them. Here let me explain .

Our dear son was a late walker 21months to be exact. While we were waiting for him to walk and pushing hard for him to walk people would often tell me that I would regret it. I now understand what they were saying I don't regret it but I do miss being able to hold my sweet boy and him not beg to get down. His exact words " Get down NOW!"

I can't help but look back at pictures taken almost three years ago of this 9lb15oz boy and wonder where in the world the time has gone. Dear son I do want you to grow and bloom but do so slowly so that I do not forget to savor the moments that we share my dear one. You have caused my motherly instinct to kick in. I love you and the times that we share as we grow together.

Happy Mother's Day !!

Easter Morning

2008-03-23T03:34:00.001-07:00

As I sleepy awake I am reminded that today is Easter Sunday. What a glorious cold day! The air outside is really cold about 37 degrees, but our hearts and home are warm. We are reminded that our Savior Jesus Christ has indeed risen from the dead. The hope of Easter! We all have messed up and have sinful lives. We do not love our neighbor, we are hateful to one another instead of loving and kind. Our minds our in a get rich mode while we are blinded to the poverty that is right outside our door. Our town and country lie in ruins while we worry about how much money we have now and how much money we will have in the future. Meanwhile, someone somewhere was worried about how to stay warm last night,or if their child would make it through the night. This Easter may we all be reminded of the hope that we have in Jesus Christ. May we share that hope daily with others in our lives not only to friends but to those who we consider enemies. Christ has risen, Christ will come again. Thanks be to our God! Have a blessed Easter.

Christmas Memories

2007-11-30T10:36:00.000-08:00

Christmas is coming! Yeah, I can hardly wait. Recently our dear son turned two. What a great Christmas season this will be this year! We are planning a trip to a train museum to ride on a train with Santa. We will have to see how he reacts to the man in the big red suit. He loves trains, so I hope that this will help. Who knows though our son is so laid back and not bothered by too much. He might just mosey right up to Santa and give him a high five. We will just have to wait and see.

Also, this year we are planning on having a live Christmas tree. I can hardly wait to smell the lovely scent of evergreen in our home. Hopefully this weekend we will be able to go to the local farmer's market and pick out a tree. If we do I hope to post a picture of our efforts here so that our family and friends can see what fun we had.

Last, but definitely not least I hope to celebrate our Savior's birth in a real and special way with my family this year. We are planning on having an Advent wreath and I hope to read some of the scripture that is involved with that as well. If anyone has any ideas and you are reading this I would love to hear from you.

Sickness

2007-11-26T14:01:00.000-08:00

In our house today we have to sick people. My dear son and dear hubby are both sick. My hubby has a sore throat and has been sick on his tummy as well. I hope that he feels better really soon. I took my dear son to the doctor just to be told that his throat is sore. That I figured but what is really bothering me is that he is so sleepy. He practically slept the morning away and he has been sleeping on and off since we left the doctor's office. I hope that he feels better by the morning. Also, I hope that I don't catch whatever they have as well. It would be very bad if we were all sick at the same time.

On another note I hope to write some post about our Christmas adventures. Look for those to show up soon. I am planning on celebrating Advent. I am looking for ideas and I will let others know what I find out.

Hope everyone is well. Have a blessed week!

Christmas is Coming !

2007-11-25T11:23:00.000-08:00

Yeah, Christmas my favorite time of the year. I love the music, the mood and the food. Especially the food. This year should be really neat because my dear son will be old enough to really enjoy the season or really not enjoy the season. We shall see.

I am also planning on focusing more on the Advent season and not so much on Santa Claus. He does have his place but I want my family to really understand the true meaning of Christmas.

Thank you Christ child for coming so humbly to us so that we might have eternal life.

Merry Christmas to all!

I'm Back Happy Mother's Day

2007-05-13T11:10:00.000-07:00

It has been way too long. I doubt that anyone who was reading my blog even has me on their list. Here is some pictures that we took while at Pilot Mountain. Hope you like them.

Long time

2006-10-07T09:25:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since I posted on here. I can't believe it. I was doing so well. Well that is like life. Sometimes you are doing so well and then you just crash. Hope to be back soon.

My Tribute to James Gerard Geyer

2006-09-11T05:24:00.000-07:00

GEYER, JAMES (JIMMY) GERARD

Mr. Geyer age 41 gave his life on September 11, 2001. He did not know that he would be a hero to his fellow Americans. As a father I am sure that he loved his children and his wife dearly. He and his wife shared 17 years of married life together in that time there were three children born. I also found out that Mr. Geyer was a youth soccer coach. I would like to say thank you for taking time out of your busy schedule to coach youth in this sport. I also understand that he loved golf. I am sure that his family misses him dearly. (See link for article) Below is an article I found during my search. I thought that everyone might enjoy reading it. Mr. Geyer seems to have loved his family and life.

James "Jimmy" Gerald Geyer
He Was 'Full of Spunk' And High Energy'

November 5, 2001

How Jimmy Geyer of Rockville Centre found time to sleep is a mystery. On top of his full-time job as a bond broker at Cantor Fitzgerald, Geyer, 41, worked weekends for a catering service, bartending and barbecuing at parties. He also coached all three of his children's soccer teams and his son's basketball team. And he still managed to keep up his hobbies-golf, fishing, and going to the beach among them.
"He'd never sit still," said his wife, Cathy Geyer. "He's always outside, doing yard work or something around the house."
As long as she'd known him, Geyer had been this way. And she'd known him a long time. The couple first met in junior high school and, his wife recalled, Geyer was "just as full of spunk and high energy.
"He was as feisty as he is now," she said, then corrected herself. "As he was now."
Geyer was on the 105th floor of Tower One when it was attacked Sept. 11.
Jimmy and Cathy Geyer stayed friends throughout high school and into college and eventually became a couple when they were 19.
"He was always a good friend," his wife said. "He was a good friend before he was my husband."
Geyer loved fatherhood. He took his children fishing, spent long afternoons at Atlantic Beach with them, and, of course, coached their sports teams.
"He was really a kid at heart, I'll tell you that," she said.
Two days before the attacks, his wife recalled, was "a beautiful Sunday" and Geyer was in "a happy mood."
"He had just coached the first two soccer games of the season, and then we went to the beach," she said. "That's what made him happy."
Indrani Sen (Newsday)

References

Friday, September 1, 2006
New York Times

Everyday Things

2006-09-01T05:16:00.000-07:00

Thanks, Jules for hosting this and getting my mind on autumn and the changing of seasons. I love the fall weather. The air is so crisp. The leaves also color the sky and ground with their warm colors. The sound of leaves crunching under my shoes leaves me with memories of my childhood. I am probably one of the few who loves to rake up the leaves. With our home being surrounded by trees this is a good thing. Last year when my infant son was driving me crazy by not wanting to take a nap I went outside to rake up leaves. It felt good to accomplish something other than keeping my son fed and dry. I also love pumpkin pie and carving pumpkins. That is what I am anticipating the most about the change of seasons.

Meme from Rocks in My Dryer

2006-08-31T10:48:00.000-07:00

This is a meme that I found over at Shannon's place
What do you like most about where you live?
I like the place where I live because of the close proximity to the beach or the mountains. You can be at either place within about 4 hours.
Neighbors are nice here but they do keep to themselves! My husband jokes and says that everybody always says that the nice ones are always on tv for committing some awful crime.
What's one of your all-time favourite music albums and why? (I'm keeping Catez's sophisticated New Zealand spelling of "favourite" to inject a little culture around here).(Kept this here from Shannon's)
I really don’t have any favourite’s . I tend to like Christian music. I also like other genres as well. Although, I am really not into heavy metal or rock. This tends to drive my husband crazy because he loves listening to 80’s Christian rock. So I will list my favorite artists

Jill Phillps- I like her clean style, she has a calm voice that helps me to worship.
Kingdom Come is my favorite

Andrew Peterson- I like how he shares the word of God thru his songs. I enjoy his realness (not sure if that is a word). He also has an awesome Christmas show that he does in Nashville, TN and some other places too I think. Go check out his website for his schedule.

Casting Crowns- Their songs get you to thinking. They also wrote a song for a little girl who died from cancer. Her family lives down the street from us.
These are just a few.

Did you have a passion for something as a kid that you still have now? (If not - what is one of your passions now?)
My passion growing up was to be a teacher. I know that I drove my younger brother crazy by always having him play school with me.
I have also always had a passion for the Lord. Even when I was younger I remember wanting to know more about Him.
I taught for about four years before my son was born.

What do you like most about having a blog?
Even though I do not post something everyday I like the fact that I do have a place where I can share my thought with others who are like minded. It is also helping me to remember all of those grammar rules that I learned in school!

Everyday Things

2006-08-25T06:36:00.001-07:00

Today I am participating in Everyday things hosted by Jules at Everday Mommy.

One thing in life that helps keep me content is my friends. I have always had a few dear friends. Most of the time they move away and I lose contact with them. I will call them my seasonal friends. They are great people and very dear to me. Although they only stick around for a season and then I have to let them go. Sometimes I hear back from them but it is not the same.

Then their are the people that I call best friends or as Jules calls them "ugly friends". I have one such friend. She and I have been friends since the seventh grade. We do not always get a chance to talk every week and sometimes it has been months between chats but our bond is still there.

I still remeber last May when she called my house and left a simple message. "Kim, this is Krsitie, I need to talk to you." Immediately I knew something was wrong. My head went racing "was it her young son, or her husband. " I just knew that something was wrong.
When I called her back all she had to say was "It's dad he is gone." Oh how I wished at that moment I could have climbed thru the telephone wires and held my dear friend. It would be two days before I could do so. At the funeral home she was standing in line holding it all together until I got to her. Then she just sobbed and I was able to do what I had wanted to do two days earlier. What a sad time but we had each other's love that was given to us by our heavenly Father to share. She has also lifted me up many times before when I was hurting and scared but this is the time that is fresh in my memory. Her father was a great man who died suddenly of a heat attack they think. He was only 49.

Contentment is what we are looking for in this life. So here I go living one day at a time not trying to think so much about the future. Let us love one another and look to heaven for our great reward.

Everyday Things

2006-08-25T06:36:00.000-07:00

Today I am participating in Everyday things hosted by Jules at Everday Mommy.

Front Porch Days

2006-08-21T10:38:00.000-07:00

Hey everybody!

I hope that everyone is having a great time coming up with their dream vaction ideas. If money and time were no object I know where I would go. Our family would take a trip around the world. First we would visit every state in the USA. After touring our own country we would head over to Europe.
I would love to ride on a Double decker bus and see Big Ben in England. Next we would hop over to Scotland and Ireland. I want to visit the castles. Also, I believe in Scotland there is a village by the name of Skeen. I believe that my father's ancestors built that town. Maybe we can stay in the castle that is in this village. After we get tired of the castles and such we would contiune our journey to Africa and visit the desert. In keeping with the desert theme we would travel in the wilderness like the children of Isreal.(besides time and money being no option we would also have to interject that the people in the Holy Land stop fighting.) Anyways on with our travels.
Next we would stop in New Zeland and go walking through the vast country side and view the waterfalls and such. We would also take a helicopter ride to view the country from the sky. While we are in a flying mood why not head over to Austrilla and visit the kangroo and other wildlife. Next, we would cool off by going to Antartica. "What are we going to see in Antartica you might ask?"

"The penguins of course!" I say.
Onward to Asia. There we will tour the rice fields and eat some delicious food!Next on to Japan. After we leave Japan we would head to South and Centeral America. We would be sure and visit Mexico City and stop by and see my cousin Juan's family. We would tour the Aztec and Myan ruins. Our last stop would be the Virgin Islands were we would soak up some sun before heading back to our little home.

Hope you all had a great time on the journey with me. I sure did.
Jules the tea is so delicious!

2006-08-18T05:43:00.000-07:00

As I thought about writing this post a million and one things popped into my head. This should be a clue to self that I am not content. So as I write this I can only think about my sleeping babe. How content he is to just rest in his crib. We have snapped a few shots of him sleeping because he looked so peaceful. So this got me to thinking about us mommies. Are we really content with what we have been given? I know that I am not. I know that I should be more content with what God has given me. I have a healthy family. My son is developing normally. Everyone says what a joy he is to have. He even recieved the best baby award during VBS.(not really but one of the nursery workers joking said this)So why am I so uncontent?

My answer is because I have not choosen to be content with what I have been given. Therefore I must make a change. I do not want to gripe or complain about what I have or do not have because there are alot of other people who have absolutely nothing. Compared to them I am rich. So there you have it contentment is a choice. We all have a choice to make. I am going to be content just like a sleeping baby.

Thanks to Jules for giving us the opprotunity to write about this.

Traveling the USA

2006-08-16T13:57:00.000-07:00

I found this cool thing on M&M's blog. I thought that it was pretty neat. Although it got me to thinking about traveling a little bit more. I love the thought of more travel I just need to find the good ole money. Anyways here it is I hope that you all enjoy!

create your own visited states map
or check out these Google Hacks.

Works for me Wednesday

2006-08-15T12:00:00.000-07:00

This is my first ever contribution to Shannon's wfmw. My idea is for parents or teachers who are trying to help left-handed students learn a new task such as tying their shoes or knitting. It is very simple but it works from my own experience (being a lefty) and from helping various children over my few years of teaching. All you have to do is sit in front of the child and perform the task. Let them watch you do it a couple of times. Then let them practice. It will probably not be perfect for a while and it might even seem backward to you if you are right handed.
Well I hope that this works for you! Let me know what you all think.
Thanks to Shannon who keeps this going for all of us who are in need of some great ideas!

Tuesday Rambles

2006-08-15T06:41:00.000-07:00

Today I am going to the Morning Book Club at our church Pleasant Grove United Methodist. Here is a link to our website www.pleasantgroveumc.org . We are going to be discussing Anderson Cooper's new book. It is a very sad book to say the least but it did get me to thinking...

My thought was how we deal with situations in our lives is by reliving something in our past. We are always linked to our history. The good, the bad and the ugly. We can only make changes by realizing that we can do something to make a difference. If we don't learn from our past mistakes how can we move forward. This is something that I am struggling with right now. I want to be the best mom and wife that I can be. The only way for me to do this is to lean on my Savior daily. So here I go. I am going to try my best to lean on my Savior daily with all of my struggles, especially my weight issues and body image issues, but that is a whole other post.

Until next time my God's grace shine down upon you!

Our mutt dog "Starsha"

2006-08-08T11:12:00.000-07:00

I was just reading the post over at Rocks in My Dryer by Shannon where she talks about there dog that they got at the pound. This got me to thinking about our dog Starsha. She is a black lab mix. She probably has some pit bull in her but she is such a loving doggy. My husband and I decided that we wanted a dog a couple of years ago. So we began searching. At first we thought about getting a dog from a breeder but decided against it.

So three Christmas seasons ago my husband and I had almost forgot about our decison to get a dog. ( Actually I had decided not to bug him too much about it) Anyways, my husband has some time off between Christmas and New Years. After he went back to work one of his friends at work told him about this sweet dog that had come up to his house and just hung around. He had decided to take it to the pound because he and his wife had a dog and had just recently become new parents. Therefore, they did not have the money to take care of another dog. My husband called me and told me about her and sent me pictures. I immediately fell in love with her. I went to visit her after work one day. I was so upset when I left the shelter that I called my husband. He was on his way home from work and said that he would meet me back at the shelter if I wanted to adopt her. Of course I wanted to adopt her! Good thing that we decided to come back and get her because another family came in right after we did and wanted to adopt her too! I telling you that she is just such a great dog.
A few days later our first "child" Starsha came to live with us. When we arrived to pick her up they had "fixed" her that day. She came out and just sat at my feet and would not move. She just looked up at me and said "Please take me home." She had to be carried out of the pound by my husband and another man. When we got her in the car she scooted over in the seat so that I could sit beside her. That night she was sick from the medicene and threw up in our bathroom. She would not even get into her kennel that we had bought for her. I could blame her.

She is such a great dog! She is gentle with our little boy. She loves to give kisses and doesn't really understand when other dogs do not like her. Our only problem is that she loves to jump up on people. So I say if you can go rescue on of those precious animals that are trapped in the animal shelter.

Crazy Friday

2006-08-04T12:31:00.000-07:00

This week has been a little crazy for me to say the least. All I have to say is that I hate church politics. It drives me up a wall. Next time I agree to take a leadership position will somebody just shoot me first.?I hate when people complain. Therefore, I should hate this post right?

The problem is that I just need to vent. So here she blows! Last night we had a meeting at our church. We are needing to make some policy changes. They are for the good of our children and adults. Why is it that people do not like change? I guess it is because we are creatures of habit. God knew this when he created us. I know that is why he gave the Israelities instructions on how to live thier lives. The early church needed this structure as well. Maybe that is what I need to tell those who do not like change. We have to have structure in place to keep us doing the Lord's work and not creating chaos. Well I must stop my vent because my little boy says
" That's quite enough Mommy!" (translated of course from his fussing in his playpen.)

Until next time God bless you!

1950's Name

2006-08-03T11:17:00.000-07:00

Thought this was cute! So I had to try it.

Your 1950s Name is:

Wanda Connie

What's your 1950s Name?

2006-08-03T10:47:00.000-07:00

Being a girl....

2006-08-01T13:22:00.000-07:00

I so enjoy reading others post. It helps me to get my thoughts to flow. For me being a girl has new meaning since the birth of my son. So much has changed. One is that I am a stay at home mom. This means that I get to run errands and shop more than I did when I was working. Sometimes this can cause a problem. Can we just say," Money Money!"? (This gives me an idea for another post!)

Any way let me get back to being a girl. For me this means dresses, sweet tea,fresh cut flowers and conversations with the girls. How about anybody else?

I am so glad that God made me a girl. We truly do have all the fun. We can raise our children with lots of love, hugs and kisses. That is what I am looking forward to as my son grows up to be a Godly man.

Yummy Treats

2006-07-28T07:03:00.000-07:00

I just got back from the doctor and he is encouraging me to exercise to lose some weight. I want to but I have a confession to make. I love sweets. I get it honestly I know. My mom tells me that when I was little and had my first taste of ice cream that Idid not make a messy of it. She had a bunch on napkins and did not have to use many. She said that I just licked it until it was gone. YUMMY is all I can say. The reason that I am writing about this is that I just read a blog at glass half full where she confessed to needing a Mountain Dew to make it through the day. I totally understand but my need is oatmeal creme pies from little debbie. Not the small ones but the big ones. I have almost made myself sick eatting those.

Ice cream is a whole different subject. I feel like the charcther is Green Eggs and Ham after he finds out how much he likes green eggs and ham. I could eat ice cream in a car, at a bar(ice cream bar of course), in a train, in a plane, on the beach, with a peach. I could eat it anywhere.
Ok, I know you get the point. I will stop my dream now.

Following Jesus

2006-07-25T13:49:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite games as a child was Follow the Leader. I especially liked it when it was my turn to be the leader. (first born child ego).It was so much fun to make everyone hop on one foot or jump up and down. The reason that Iam writting this to begin my post on following Jesus is that our walk should be like follow the leader.

Sometimes I feel as if I make being a christian to difficult. I think to myself if I just read my Bible everyday, pray everyday, be nice to everyone and not get upset that I will be a good christian. Now don't get me wrong that is what a christian is suppose to do but more importantly we are to follow Jesus. Easier said than done but that is all we really have to do. So I am off to play follow the leader with my Savior Jesus Christ. I hope that I encourage you to do the same.

Until next time my God bless you and keep you safe.

The Lord is good to me!

2006-07-18T11:56:00.000-07:00

"The Lord is good to me and so I thank the Lord for giving me the things I need the sun and the moon and the air I breathe OH the Lord is good to me!"

That song just popped in my head and I felt that I should share it! I love it when something like that just pops in my head. It just reminds me of how good God can be. Thank you Lord for my family and my church family. I am so blessed to have people who love me and care about me! Thank you!

One thing that has been bothering me is that I am going to have to go back to work. I am concerned for my son's wellfare as he will have to be in someone else's care while I work. Also the thought of entering the workforce after almost two years is driving me crazy. Anyways I hope that everyone remembers today how good the Lord is to them. You know He loved us even before anyone else knew about us. Thank you Lord!

Nerdy??

2006-07-18T11:37:00.000-07:00

This is a cute test that I found on a blog that I read.

Hope you like it !

Passion

2006-07-14T06:26:00.000-07:00

Our new pastor gave a message about our passion. This got me to thinking and crying a little bit. I have been struggling lately. I hate to admit it but I have. Life is rough for me. It shouldn't be because I have a wonderful husband and baby boy. My husband helps me out tremendously. He takes care of our son when I am too tired to do it. He helps clean our house. He washes and folds clothes. (Although not at the same time this is another post 8)). He also is great with our money. He is a wise spender and saver. My son is a great baby who smiles most of the time and only really cries when he is tired and does not want to go to sleep. Enough with the bragging. My point is that my life is great! The problem is that I get so aggravated and flustrated. The more I thought about it the more I realized that I had lost sight of my passion. I had forgotten that the love of my life(not my husband) my Savior Jesus Christ does more than my husband or my son will ever be able to for me. That is He choose me before the creation of the earth, he loved me even before I knew Him. His grace is given to me I don't earn it. I don't even have to try and earn it. His grace is there for the taking. All he ask in return is that I love Him. If I love Him then I will do his will and love my neighbor as myself and all that other stuff that Christians are suppose to do.

Until next love and grace to you all!!!

What Flower are you?

2006-06-30T12:18:00.000-07:00

I found this cool quiz on a blog that I read called Chewymom.

I am an
Echinacea

What Flower
Are You?

Hope you all like it. I thought that it was a nice little quiz. Let me know what you think.

Growth

2006-06-27T17:33:00.000-07:00

Lately, I have been thinking alot about growth and development. Not just physical but mental and spiritual growth as well. Last night I happened to find a journal that I had started writting in when I was pregnant with my DS. With many of the entries I ended with and help DS to grow healthy and strong inside of me. I was so worried that something might happen to him that I could hardly stand myself if I did not feel him move. Once he came all I wanted to do is sleep. This required him to sleep. With which he had a hard time. Funny how are our views change. Now he is sleeping and I am the one who is awake. God has blessed me with a wonderful ds and dh but sometimes I forget to let them know how much I think of them. Sometimes I am just too wrapped up in me to care about them. All this time I thought that I was a very loving person. The more I learn about me the more I find out just how much I need someone to save me. The more I learn about myself the more I realize just how important it was for Jesus to die for me. Not only to die but to defeat death and rise from the dead so that I might be able to love my family just like he loves me. I am still working on that part. I hope that in all my growing that I never forget that. Thank you Jesus for dying for an selfish unworthy mommy like me.

Didn't realize that this was going to be such a testimony but here it is.

Hypothyroidism and other stuff

2006-06-22T13:56:00.000-07:00

Today is a good day. It is very hot outside so me and the baby are inside. Right now he is napping. I was trying to nap but the phone kept ringing. The dentist was confirming our cleanings for next Tuesday. It is so annoying that they have to make two phone calls. My guess is for privacy issues but if you live in the same house and they call the other person will know becuase it is always computer animated. Drives me crazy but whats a girl to do. I guess the answer is to blog.

As mentioned in an earlier post I am trying to learn all I can about hypothyroidism. I am still feeling pretty tired but I think that I might be catching up a little on my sleep. Although this will probabbly never happen. Does anybody out there have any information on hypothyroidism? If so please feel free to leave me a comment. I am trying not to worry to much about it but it can drive a person a little crazy when the doctor tells them "you have this so start taking this medicene and oh by the way you will have to take this the rest of your life."

I was think "Oh great something else for me to remember and to stress about"

Changes

2006-06-19T17:27:00.000-07:00

Lots of things have changed since my last entry. I am still very tired but I have found a reason for my tiredness. I went to the doctor and found out that my thyroid levels were very low. I was diagonsed with hypothyroidism. Translation bring on the pounds and sluggishness. I absolutely hate being tired. I want to lose weight but now I have something to blame my lack of weight loss on. Right now I am trying to find out as much information as I can on hypothyroidism. Everything I read says that I will have to take medicence the rest of my life. I really don't want to but the alternative of having major heart complications is definitely not something that I want to deal with at all.

On another note, I did read a great devotional today on the need for faith in God to bring us through tough situations. Easier said than done for me but I am going to try. For anyone who might read this how about you? How is God working in your life? I would love to hear from you and I will try to keep you posted on my slow progress. This is a journey it is up to us if we enjoy all that God has given to us.

Mothering

2006-03-20T17:22:00.000-08:00

Lately, I have been feeling quite crazy. I guess that it is just my horomones and lack of sleep that is getting the best of me. Being a mother is not what I thought that it would be. I guess my expectation was to be some sort of June Cleaver. I must say that is not who I am. Instead I am a cranky, sleep deprived, stinky cook, who loves her family.However I am a mother. Some days are better than others. I have for the most part quit trying to do things by the book. My child has not read the books so neither will I. Instead I will use my God given motherly instinct to help my child to grow. My plan is to also use my wife instinct to help my husband as well. Who I have lately been snapping at way too much. Sorry, honey I know that you love me and that you are just as sleep deprived as I. Our child will not be this little for much longer. In fact there have been a few nights that he has sleep almost nine hours. Our child is a gift from God and I want him to know it. I also want him to know the love that we share is real and that we love him.

Not feeling perfect

2006-03-11T10:37:00.000-08:00

I feel that there is so much pressure on moms. I am a stay at home mom who feels so much pressure to make sure that my child is taken care of to the best of my ability and meanwhile the house is suppose to be the cleanest it has ever been. The funny thing about this pressure for me is that it comes from me. I don't have an overbearing mother, mother-in-law or husband who tells me what I should or should not be doing with my child or that the house needs to be cleaner. In fact I have the best husband any girl could ask for. He goes to work and does not complain about coming home to a house that is not clean. There are usually dishes in the sink, the floor needs to be swept etc. So what I am asking is why in the world do I feel so much pressure to be so prefect? My only answer to that is that I like things to happen in an orderly fashion. I cannot stand it when my child who is sixth months old has just finished nursing and I pick him up to burp him and he starts to fuss or cry. I just want to look at him and say "What in the world have you been doing for an hour?" What I am learning is that he has not read all the books or websites that I have and he has no idea what he is suppose to be doing.

Therefore, I have come to the conclousion that as a parent I have to let it fly and whatever comes comes. I must take it one day at a time and lean on Jesus for support when things get crazy for me and I start feeling that I am not the perfect mother. Because it is then that I realize that I am not and there really is not such thing as the perfect mother. My children will love me because I was there for them when they needed me and I gave them love.

My first ever blog

2006-03-10T18:13:00.000-08:00

Hello, everyone this is my first blog. I am very excited about using this blog to post my random thoughts and feelings about raising a christian family. My hope is to inspire others to be the best that they can be. I will hopefully be posting more as my time permits.